INEVITABLE ANXIETIES

I just finished the next track for my album.  Finished probably isn't the right word-- there's lots of mixing left to do, but I did complete the skeleton of the song and a good portion of the flesh.

I've found myself frustrated while mixing both of the songs I've done for the album.  As I tweak each voice in the track, sometimes I find myself going down a rabbit hole for which I never find my way back. Sometimes, I get to a point where I feel like the whole thing is ruined and I just want to walk away for good.

What I continue to tell myself is simply to keep going. I can't let frustration interfere with creation.  I know ultimately that I can go back and fix everything-- tedious as it may be.  But, I can't do anything if I stop making stuff.

Two songs, still unfinished.  It sounds like a drop in the bucket.

Nevertheless, that's 1/5 of the way to my goal of ten songs, and a long way from where I started.

I'm finding now that its a lot harder to go at it alone, rather than with a band. When you do it yourself, you don't have anyone to lean on for direction or support.  I thought that doing it myself would afford me tremendous artistic freedom, which it has, but I never considered the detriments of solitude.

Even though my late August deadline feels looming, at least I'm moving forward and making progress. Plans may change still, so I'm staying flexible.

Here's some art I'm considering using for the album. I'm also flirting with the idea of performing under a band name pseudonym, The Brave Companions.